Biting the Bullet

It's finally here. I've finally decided to do it. One little step for me, maybe a larger step when viewed from another perspective. I've always wanted to do my own thing, run my own show. Somehow ever since I was born, I knew this was what I've always wanted to do.

And now I've the chance to do it. Either do it now, or never. Time isn't going to wait for me, and I shouldn't wait for myself either to grow old and regret missed opportunities. I finally start up my own little film production company. I've decided not to fully focus just on films, but on anything that requires a camera, I can definitely apply myself to. And if I don't know how to do it, then I'll get myself down into the trenches and learn it. It can't be all that hard since many other people are doing it as well.

Exciting times. Every day is a battle between myself. Sometimes you're afraid that it won't work out. Sometimes you're afraid of failure, but there's no other way but to stand up and go on ahead and face that fear. I read an article on the internet about how guys manage to talk to pretty girls. Strange subject matter, but the underlying concept is the same. They just decide on an action in 3 seconds rather than letting their head get in the way of being knocked back.

So I've linked my film website here. It's in english and german. It was a little hard with the web coding, but I'm happy everything turned out fine.

Now for the next step!

Boll-Shit

I just did something stupid. I watched 2 Uwe Boll movies back to back, one after another. First was Dungeon Siege, the second was Blood Rayne 2. Both were painful experiences I'd rather not dwell on.

First off, if you're a fan of the colour brown and 10th rate Lord of the Ring knockoffs, then Dungeon Siege might be right up your alley. You'd think with a budget of 60 million dollars Boll could do something better. Think again. It's pure crap, pure trash and pure drivel. The action scenes are way too long, and he's tried to cram as much stuff from Lord of the Rings into one movie. Bleah. Double bleah. Lord of the Rings was a masterpiece. This is just shit. Pure Boll-shit. After this film, you'll never want to see the colour brown ever again.

Blood Rayne 2 was barely ok, for a direct to video release. But considering the budget of 20 million dollars, and the shitty photography, script and everything else...... I think a bunch of untrained paralytic pensioneers could do much better with nothing more than a handheld handycam. It's that bad. Shaky, uncertain, and hopeless scripting leaves this film with a lot to be desired. Malthe might be sexy as Rayne, but I was kinda expecting more.... action. There is action, yes, but not the sort I expected or even wanted. It was too scripted, too...... plain, too boring. It needed something more which wasn't present.

Both films are sorely lacking in the cinematography and post production department to say the least. I was bored after the first 10-15 minutes, and the scripts ... were too predictable. Way too predictable. Nothing new, nothing interesting. Mediocre at best.

In the end, good examples of how *NOT* to shoot a film. Not recommended to anyone at all. It'll just be a waste of a good 40 euros. I'm looking forward to Michael Clayton next.

Overthinking and Doing

I think too much. I think that I should do more and think less about what may happen or what may be. It's all in the future, so it is not here in the present yet. The only thing that is 100% sure is the present. If I do not do now, then the after effects will not be in the future. But I will be thinking in the future then, if I had not done, about why I did not do it then in the past.

Confusing? A little maybe. Newton stated cause and effect. It's the same. I'll be chained to an eventual stream of why didn't I, fearing of the unknown, rather than facing it, and having a definite answer. Maybe it might not turn out well. But how will I know for sure until I've done it?

I sometimes sit at my desk, thinking, maybe daydreaming about what might be or what could have been. I sit staring at my edit tables wondering how the finished product will turn out rather than putting more effort into the finished product. I sit staring, thinking of whether to go to bed now or later. But then I figure out every morning, that I still need 8 hours of sleep irrespective of whether I've gone to bed at midnight or 8am the next morning. My body tells me, "I need 8 hours whether you like it or not". So in such cases, instead of thinking and dreaming my life away, I'll just get up and do it. Because once it's done, it's done. And then it's time to move on to the next step, whatever it may be.

So until the future comes about, the only time for certain is the here and now. And now is the time for doing.